Friday, February 28, 2014

Book Review(s): Shifting, Verity, Steel, and Bones

I've decided I need to review the books I read so that A) you'll get an opinion on whether they're worth reading or not, and B) I'll remember to practice editing skills and really analyze a story's structure and features.

So far this semester I haven't found very much time to read, but I did get the chance to pick up The Shifter, Code Name Verity, Steelheart, and The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones. The first one I found purely by accident while wandering around the library (it caught my eye because the working title of one of my stories was Shifter once). The other three were highly recommended on goodreads.


SynopsisNya is an orphan struggling for survival in a city crippled by war. She is also a Taker—with her touch, she can heal injuries, pulling pain from another person into her own body. But unlike her sister, Tali, and the other Takers who become Healers' League apprentices, Nya's skill is flawed: She can't push that pain into pynvium, the enchanted metal used to store it. All she can do is shift it into another person, a dangerous skill that she must keep hidden from forces occupying her city. If discovered, she'd be used as a human weapon against her own people. 

Rumors of another war make Nya's life harder, forcing her to take desperate risks just to find work and food. She pushes her luck too far and exposes her secret to a pain merchant eager to use her shifting ability for his own sinister purposes. At first Nya refuses, but when Tali and other League Healers mysteriously disappear, she's faced with some difficult choices. As her father used to say, principles are a bargain at any price; but how many will Nya have to sell to get Tali back alive?


My Thoughts: I really like this book. It has a unique, Caribbean-type setting, and Hardy does a brilliant job of portraying the realities of a country at war. It's not a heavy read, but it's very well written, and I'm surprised I'd never heard of it before. The magic system is structured and believable, and the characters are well-rounded. I'd definitely recommend it to fans of juvenile fiction--people like me who enjoy clean, believable, action-packed creativity.



Synopsis: I have two weeks. You’ll shoot me at the end no matter what I do.

That’s what you do to enemy agents. It’s what we do to enemy agents. But I look at all the dark and twisted roads ahead and cooperation is the easy way out. Possibly the only way out for a girl caught red-handed doing dirty work like mine — and I will do anything, anything, to avoid SS-Hauptsturmführer von Linden interrogating me again.

He has said that I can have as much paper as I need. All I have to do is cough up everything I can remember about the British War Effort. And I’m going to. But the story of how I came to be here starts with my friend Maddie. She is the pilot who flew me into France — an Allied Invasion of Two.

We are a sensational team.


My Thoughts: This book made me cry. A lot. I don't usually read historical fiction, but picked this book up during the first week of the new semester, and despite all the homework I had to do, I just couldn't put it down. It's amazing. I'm a big fan of stories told by unreliable narrators, and it's incredible how Elizabeth Wein conveys so much in even the smallest details. I felt breathless by the end, just blown away by how it all turned out. This story is going to stay with me forever.



Synopsis: There are no heroes.

Ten years ago, Calamity came. It was a burst in the sky that gave ordinary men and women extraordinary powers. The awed public started calling them Epics.

But Epics are no friend of man. With incredible gifts came the desire to rule. And to rule man you must crush his wills. 

Nobody fights the Epics... nobody but the Reckoners. A shadowy group of ordinary humans, they spend their lives studying Epics, finding their weaknesses, and then assassinating them.

And David wants in. He wants Steelheart—the Epic who is said to be invincible. The Epic who killed David's father. For years, like the Reckoners, David's been studying, and planning—and he has something they need. Not an object, but an experience. 

He's seen Steelheart bleed. And he wants revenge.

My Thoughts: Once again, Brandon Sanderson is an AMAZING writer. His action sequences are so fast-paced yet full of details that suck you right into the story. My only problem with this book is that it reminds me a LOT of Mistborn: the Final Empire. You've got a random underdog person who becomes involved with an organized group determined to overthrow the god-status emperor, who is a monster but actually does kind of a good job of keeping the world from falling apart. The concepts are very much the same, as are the endings. But I suppose the two books cater to a different audience, so maybe most casual readers won't compare the two. Even having read Mistborn, I liked this book a lot. The writing is fantastic, the action stunning, the characters unique and memorable, and the story engaging. Of course, it's the first book in a series (because apparently Brandon Sanderson has a superpower that allows him to work on like four separate series all at once), but this book stands well on its own. I look forward to the sequel, but I'm not left hanging and desperate for more.




Synopsis: When fifteen-year-old Clary Fray heads out to the Pandemonium Club in New York City, she hardly expects to witness a murder -- much less a murder committed by three teenagers covered with strange tattoos and brandishing bizarre weapons. Then the body disappears into thin air. It's hard to call the police when the murderers are invisible to everyone else and when there is nothing―not even a smear of blood―to show that a boy has died. Or was he a boy?

This is Clary's first meeting with the Shadowhunters, warriors dedicated to ridding the earth of demons. It's also her first encounter with Jace, a Shadowhunter who looks a little like an angel and acts a lot like a jerk. Within twenty-four hours Clary is pulled into Jace's world with a vengeance, when her mother disappears and Clary herself is attacked by a demon. But why would demons be interested in ordinary mundanes like Clary and her mother? And how did Clary suddenly get the Sight? The Shadowhunters would like to know... 

Exotic and gritty, exhilarating and utterly gripping, Cassandra Clare's ferociously entertaining fantasy takes readers on a wild ride that they will never want to end.


My Thoughts: Since the film adaptation came out last year(?) I've heard a lot about this book, but I just didn't read it until this last week. I guess I felt a little tired of YA fiction. But I liked this book okay. I'd thought it was a dystopian novel, but turns out it's actually modern-day fantasy, along the same lines as Twilight and Harry Potter. Sorry, it's not fair to compare it to Twilight. Nor to Harry Potter. It's completely unrelated. For one, it's darker and edgier than most YA fantasy, which adds realism and makes the "protagonist discovers he or she is actually a wizard/witch/werewolf/whatever" formula a lot more believable. It caters to an older audience (like 16-year-olds as opposed to 12-year-olds). It does a good job of presenting a real, dangerous conflict that makes the use of magic something vitally important, not just a cool thing the protagonist discovers. The writing is very good. Cassandra Clare writes some great descriptions (though I noticed that a LOT of them were cat-themed. She must really love cats.) She manages to talk about the sights, smells, and sounds of each scene, without bogging down the story with too much exposition. The only downside to this story is that it does contain language and a lot of sexual innuendo, so I can't really recommend it to everyone. I was kind of embarrassed to be carrying it around BYU campus. I mean, just look at that cover. And if you had the actual book in your hands you'd see that every blurb contains the word "sexy". Like, oh really? Sexy? I couldn't tell from the shirtless guy on the cover that "sexy" is what the author was going for (though, to be fair, the character on the cover never actually takes his shirt off in the book). I'll probably finish this series someday, but it wasn't so spectacularly original that I crave more.


So I hope these quick reviews give you some ideas of what you want to read next. Just doing this has made me think that I really need to start reading more. I used to read a book a day in junior high and high school, so only four books in two months is disgraceful for me. :) I think I'm going to challenge myself by finding a list of recommended books and vowing to read them all. Stay tuned for that.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Freewrite: Interviews Part 2

Cute, professional appearance?

Check!

Feel-good music?

Check!

BRING ON ROUND 2 OF INTERVIEWS!


UPDATE: It went very well. :)

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Deadline: The Power of Procrastination


In my defense, I didn't actually procrastinate any of my homework (......this time...), but I did still have to do it all last minute. I started last week thinking I didn't have any big projects to do after the three-day weekend. Then Wednesday came around, and I learned that I had a paper, a project, and a take-home midterm all due on Monday. So that killed my weekend.

But really I have an uncanny ability to work super productively at the very last minute before an assignment is due. I'd say it's my most efficient time to work--right before a deadline. And since I'm definitely not a night person, I actually prefer waking up super early the morning of a deadline and getting stuff done. I just can't seem to think with the same clarity when there's not a ton of pressure, and there is a lot of other fun to be had. I'm too distracted. 



Maybe I'd be better at getting things done early if there were ever any negative repercussions. Okay yeah theres the constant worry in the pit of my stomach that I won't get things done on time, but really even if I haven't worked on a paper until the morning that it's due, I still tend to get really good grades. Maybe if I was just bad at schoolwork, I'd work harder.

But anyways, I didn't actually procrastinate this time, but I did still manage to get everything done in a satisfactory way, because I had that "last-minute panic" driving me.

Then yesterday, I didn't procrastinate. My article designs aren't due until tonight, but I finished them and turned them in last night. Ha! Ha!!!

It was no picnic, though. I went to the Humanities Lab right after work and stayed there for four straight hours, trying to remember the skills I learned in one semester of the InDesign class I took a year and a half ago. It wasn't easy. Thankfully I had a bunch of classmates around to help me. They dished out their designs in like two hours, and spent the rest of the time helping little incompetent me. :)

Designing is definitely not my forte. These article designs were definitely just a pathetic first draft. I'm gonna scour a bunch of magazines for layout ideas and just steal from those on the second go-around. Last night I just relearned the basics.

There are WAY too many basics.




So. Many. Buttons. 

And I spent most of the time just staring at my screen like this.


But I got it done, and hopefully once I really get the hang of InDesign I'll be able to make these spreads look spectacular.

For now, I'll stick with doodling. To end, here's a picture of a butterfly that I drew on the Biology Department white board yesterday.


Monday, February 24, 2014

Freewrite: Wordpress Prompt

I'm still extremely stressed out today. I miraculously managed to get all my homework done in time to turn it all in this morning (and I really mean just done--I don't think I did any of it well because I was stretched so thin it was a miracle I was even able to accomplish minimum effort). But I'm still not done. Tomorrow you'll get to hear all about all my deadlines.

But for today, since I'm short on time and patience, I'm just gonna do a quick freewrite. I was on wordpress earlier this week, working on my online portfolio, and there was this daily prompt:

Imagine that tomorrow, all of your duties and obligations evaporate for the day. You get the day all to yourself, to do anything you please. What types of fun activities would make your day?
Commence daydream sequence.



If all my homework and deadlines and classes and meetings just disappeared today... *sigh* That would be amazing. Okay, let's pretend I had absolutely no obligations. And money. Ooh! And a car. Here's what I would do:

* Wake up at 6:00am, as usual. Just because I don't have class or work doesn't mean I'm gonna waste daylight.

* Hop into my car (ha ha! Ha! Oh man I wish) and drive north, through the mountains up to Silver Lake. I'd grab a Greek yogurt parfait along the way and eat it up at the lake while observing all the chipmunks, ospreys, and moosen.

* When I felt good and ready, I'd drive back down to the Salt Lake valley and go to the zoo. Yeah, that's right. The zoo. I'm a 24-year-old who would happily spend my afternoon going through the zoo at my own pace, taking pictures, maybe sketching a little.

* Then I'd drive down to Temple Square, grab lunch/dinner at the Nauvoo Cafe, and walk around the grounds, taking pictures with the sun setting behind everything.

* For the evening, I'd go back down to Provo, rent a puppy and play with it for a couple of hours. :)

* To end my night, I dunno. I'd probably just watch a movie, to be honest.

That's what I feel like doing today. That would be the best. But, alas, I do have obligations, and I don't have money, and I don't have a car, so there's no use daydreaming, I guess. Now I've gotten that out of my system, time to go to work. :)



Sunday, February 23, 2014

Sunday Soliloquy: Opening My Heart

I know, I know, you all thought I'd dropped off the face of the earth, never to write again. Don't you worry, I'm back! I've just had a lot on my plate this weekend, and my creative juices were all dried up by the merciless desert air that accompanies college midterm projects.

Anyways, I thought today I would continue where I left off last time: to love another person is to see the face of God.

My sister Sarah and I have a kind of origin story. You know, like if they were to make a movie about how great of friends we are, they'd have to go back and show the origin story of how we came to love each other. I mean, of course we've always loved each other--we're sisters. And I love my other two sisters just as much. I'll for sure talk about them on this blog at some point. But today I want to talk about me and Sarah for a bit.

She's probably really tired of me bringing this up, but it really was a big learning moment for me.

This is us. :)
Our story begins when I was nineteen years old, living at my grandparents' house in Salt Lake. I worked at Tagge's Famous Fruit, then, managing different stands all over the city. It required lots of heavy lifting, constant customer service, and virtually no down time. I was very independent at the time, so basically all I did was work, chill out at home, and sleep. I was good at it, too.

One day late in July, I was just finishing dinner and trying to decide which movie I was going to watch that night. I was exhausted and looking forward to having the house to myself, because my grandparents were going downtown with all the aunts, uncles, and cousins to some production (I can't remember what it was). I could have gone with them, but it was going to keep them out very late, and I had another hard day of work in the morning, so I stayed behind.

But just as I was beginning to relax, my cell phone rang.

It was Sarah. "Carly," she said. "I have the flu, and everyone else is going to leave me."

I felt my stomach drop. Sarah was also living in Salt Lake that month, babysitting my cousins on a daily basis. She and I hadn't talked much even though we were living only a few streets away, because at the time our relationship was very strained. All during my high school years we had a difficult time getting along. Sometimes we were outright cruel. We were always finding reasons to despise each other, and when we ran out of ammo we would bring up past arguments or transgressions and start the whole thing over again. It seemed that we would never learn to get along.

So having her call me wasn't exactly something I looked forward to. And worse, I knew exactly what kind of flu she meant. Some of our cousins had come to town on vacation, and they had brought with them a very nasty flu. It was highly contagious and had gone the rounds with all the aunts, uncles, and cousins. I'd thought it was dying down, and I'd successfully managed to avoid it.

Now here was Sarah, who I didn't get along with, telling me that she had the flu that I really didn't want to catch.

She was old enough to stay home alone and take care of herself, and so the family members she was staying with decided to go on to the downtown thing and leave her alone to rest. She'd put on a brave face for them and told them she'd be fine, but now she was calling me, and she sounded awful. Her voice was filled with homesickness and misery and loneliness, above all.

For a second, habit almost made me just make an excuse and leave her to her own devices. What possible reason could I have for risking catching the flu and helping this little sister who had only filled my high school years with contention?

But that selfish notion only lasted a split second. When I heard the sadness in my baby sister's voice, something hit me like a slap across the face. I thought of how scared and lonely I would be in her situation. I thought of how many times in my life I'd loved her so much I could kill to defend her. In that instant, my heart was opened, and it filled up with an overwhelming love and longing to help Sarah. All of our differences, all of our past arguments, just vanished as the Spirit prompted me to "comfort those who stand in need of comfort." Sarah may have hurt me in the past, but she was still my little sister, and I loved her, and she needed me.

She didn't have to say another word. She didn't even have to properly ask me to come over. She just said, "Carly, I have the flu, and everyone else is going to leave me."

I said, "Hang on, it's okay, I'll be right there."

I dropped everything, grabbed my car keys, and rushed to my aunt's house.

I found Sarah looking absolutely miserable--pale, feverish, and close to tears. She wasn't in much state to talk, and I was out of practice chatting with her anyways, so I quietly went to work making her comfortable on the basement couch. I dug through my aunt's pantry and found some Sprite to settle her stomach, and then I put in a movie for her to watch to take her mind off of her agony.

We chose "Johnny Lingo." The newer one. Don't ask me why.


It was a pretty ridiculous movie for a nineteen- and fifteen-year-old to watch, but now I have an extreme fondness for it, because it's what we watched that night.

For most of the movie, she was alternating between vomiting and crying. Even though I was terrified of catching the sickness myself, I sat there on the couch next to her and tended to her as best as I knew how. I could see that she found some comfort in my being there. Just me sitting on the couch with her instead of treating her like a leper, when the rest of the world had abandoned her, seemed to put her more at ease.

As the night wore on, her vomiting lessened and the movie ended, and I talked with her to cheer her up. I found myself speaking to her more openly and kindly than I had in years. She opened up, too, when she started feeling better, and we were both a bit surprised to find that we actually had a lot in common. I hadn't felt any animosity toward her all night. From an outside perspective, she was being a baby and making me give up my night and my good health to babysit her. But I never thought of it that way. I just wanted to take care of her--good night's sleep and flulessness be darned!

Getting along suddenly didn't seem so hard after all, and soon we were actually enjoying being together. I stayed there at my aunt's house for most of the night. We just talked and swapped stories and laughed and had a good night until Sarah's flu-ridden body finally wore out and she fell asleep. Even then, I stayed with her until the rest of the family came back.

I didn't rest well at all that night, and I was extremely tired at work the next day. But I didn't care.

And then, sure enough, two days later I woke up and promptly lost my breakfast, lunch, and dinner from the day before. It was quite possibly the worst flu I've ever had, but it was worth it to me. In fact, it ended up being Sarah's and my little secret, because the rest of the family wanted to go to the cabin that day and they probably would have made a big deal about it if they knew I had the flu. So I just pretended like I was still going to go to work and thus couldn't go (when in reality I'd called my boss at 5:30am to find a replacement). It took all my willpower not to hurl during the family prayer before they left, but then they were gone. Sarah was the only one who I'd told, and she and I stole glances at each other during the prayer when they blessed me to have a good day at work. We're such sneakers.

The flu only lasted 24 hours, and no one was the wiser. But Sarah's and my friendship has lasted a lot longer than that, and I'm sure our parents at least have noticed the difference.

We still have our differences and our occasional spats, but now that we've seen into each others' hearts and come to understand each other better, our fights never last long.

I still count that night with Sarah as one of the best experiences of my life, flu bug and all. In one night I had learned to let go of grudges. I'd discovered that happiness comes from selflessly serving a sister in need.

I pray that I may never let a potentially-wonderful friendship be blocked by grudges ever again. Sarah and I might have been friends a lot sooner had we just let go and served each other. Ours is a friendship I may never have discovered had I not given us a second chance by opening my heart and letting a bad situation turn into an origin story.

Wow, this is already really long. But sorry, I'm not done.

At the last General Conference, October 2013, President Eyring opened his talk, "Bind Up Their Wounds" with this sentence: "All of us are blessed with responsibility for others." The rest of the talk definitely connected with me (our origin story was on my mind the whole time), but that first line has stayed with me especially.

We are blessed with responsibility for others. Not burdened. Not obligated. Blessed.

I've definitely seen that that's true, and I hope you all at some point have felt the same way.


Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Movie Review: Les Miserables



I'm not doing this review because this movie is new. It's not. It came out two years ago. Nor am I reviewing it because this is my first time seeing it. It's not. I've seen this movie before. I've seen the Liam Neeson movie. I've seen the really old movie with Anthony Perkins. I've seen the stage production four times. I own the CD of the original London cast recordings. I've even read the book--the unabridged version of the book.

I guess you could say it's getting pretty serious.

I'm doing this review because I love this story. I'm an avid reader. I'm an English Language major. I'm a total geek when it comes to books, movies, and (good) TV series. And I can honestly say that Les Miserables is my favorite story. Ever.

I loved the pre-2012 movies, but I loved seeing the musical best. I was resigned to my fate of just watching the movie whenever I had Les Mis withdrawals, and praying that the musical would come to town again.

So when I came home from my mission and heard that the musical had been turned into a movie, I was thrilled! I could watch the musical whenever I wanted, without having to wait for a production to come to town, and without having to pay $20 for each viewing! It was a dream come true!

My family and I went to see it on opening day, which was Christmas 2012. The theater was packed full of people who were either rabid fans of the musical or who had just gotten sucked into the hype and wanted to see what all the fuss was about.

I'll admit that I was kind of disappointed when I first saw Les Mis in theaters. Not in the movie itself, but in the other people in the theater. There I was trying to enjoy the experience and listen to the message of the music, but half the theater was chatting with each other, criticizing the acting, or coming and going as if they couldn't care less about missing the show. It was like a mass case of trying to get someone interested in something you love and having them just give you a blank stare. And it kind of ruined the theater-going experience for me.

I saw the movie again several times, but each time it was with people who hadn't seen it before or with people who just didn't care enough to keep quiet and enjoy it. It wasn't until this last President's Day that I got to watch it (mostly) alone and drink in every detail.

I'm reviewing this now, because I watched it this weekend for the first time in like a year, and it made me cry as if it were my first viewing. Whatever people say to oppose this film, it made me cry. I love it. And here's why: Because whenever I hear that story, I end up feeling like I could be a better person. I have a stronger desire to forgive and forget--to be selfless and caring--to have conviction and strength in hardship.

How can anyone deny that the story is amazing? You've got Valjean and Javert (by far my favorite characters in all of literature), Eponine and Marius and Cosette, Fantine, the Thenardiers, Enjoras and Gavroche... All with a tragic story that shapes their lives and defines their characters and ultimately ends with a hopeful (if not happy) resolution.

But others don't see that!

I know so many people who don't want to watch the movie because it's a musical. And then there are those, like my grandma, who love musicals, but refuse to watch the movie because the actors can't sing as well as a Broadway performer.

Don't get me wrong, I love the music. I could listen to the music all day. But I didn't go to the movie because of the music. I went for the story. The story just so happens to be best conveyed through music. I didn't care too much that the actors weren't the best singers in the world. All I care about is that they are amazing actors.

When they sing those songs, their voices shake and falter, and I like that. There's real, raw emotion when they sing. You can't get that on Broadway--you can't see the pain in their eyes--Broadway actors can't cry when they sing, or they won't project loudly enough.

But here on film, you get Anne Hathaway singing "I Dreamed a Dream", start-to-finish, in one long take, where she starts out depressed, then conveys heartbreak, hope, outrage, and defeat from one line to the next. She's outright bawling while she sings.

Hugh Jackman does the same with "What Have I Done?", and even though I'm not the biggest fan of his voice, there's no denying his acting ability. His is my favorite portrayal of Valjean to date.

So they made a movie where the quality of voices was replaced with quality of emotion, and I think it made the music even more beautiful than before.

Haters gonna hate, but I love this movie. I wouldn't buy a CD of the songs by Hugh Jackman, Anne Hathaway, and Russell Crowe, but I am thrilled to be able to see those songs in context whenever I need a Les Mis fix. Whenever I need to be reminded that "to love another person is to see the face of God."

Monday, February 17, 2014

Ambiance: New Apartment

This last week was one of the longest of my life, no joke. I have been so exhausted all weekend; my body just wants me to keep sleeping and recover all the energy I spent last week. But on Saturday, I just spent a bunch more energy by checking out the new apartment I'm going to be living in after Graduation.

First of all, it turns out that the apartment is NOT in Sugarhouse, as I originally believed. I wrote the address wrong when I talked to the landlord over the phone, and I totally would have ended up in the wrong place had I not left the address at home and called the landlord again.

Thankfully I was still heading in the right direction at the time, so no harm done. I just had to kind of recalibrate. The apartment isn't right next to Sugarhouse park, it's actually right down the street from my grandma! So it's still a good spot, even if there's not a big beautiful park right next door.

So I woke up early on Saturday morning to start my long journey to Salt Lake City to check out the new digs. I got on a bus at 9:00, which took me to the Frontrunner station here in Provo. The train left at 9:50, and got me to Murray Central Station at around 10:30. From there, I took TRAX up to 33rd south. I waited a half hour for the bus to come, and then finally arrived in the right neighborhood at 11:30.

But I made the mistake of getting off the bus a little too late. The apartment complex was right behind me, but the street to get there was down the road, only like ten yards. It would have been easy to backtrack, except it's right on a very busy road and there was no sidewalk--not even a bike lane.

Rather than risk running down a busy street lane, I walked up to the next stoplight, crossed the street, walked down the opposite side of the street to the stoplight down where I SHOULD'VE gotten off of the bus, then crossed the street again to finally make it to the complex.

It was all worth the long hours of travel and the extra walking around. The complex is really nice--only like five years old, and just far enough away from the busy road to feel sheltered and peaceful.

I met my new landlord/roommate, Rachel. She's pretty much amazing. She's 31 (but looks WAY younger) and is a very successful civil rights lawyer. She travels the world on a regular basis and seems pretty darn wealthy, so the apartment is well-kept and has amazing decorations from her personal collection of travel souvenirs.

Here are some pictures of the place. I really REALLY like it:

This will be my room. Except I own no furniture at the moment, so none of this will actually be there. I hope I'll be able to make my room even a LITTLE BIT as cute as this. 






The only thing I'm anxious about is the fact that none of that stuff in the room is mine. I have to bring all my own furnishings--even a bed. I didn't anticipate that, but I still feel good about the apartment, so I signed up, got a key, and it's mine! I'm so excited to live there! I'm just praying that I'll get a good job to pay for it. I need furniture. And a car someday. Right now I feel really poor and really young, especially compared to Rachel.

She told me that the average age range in the ward is 27 to 30. I'm going to be the baby of the ward! That's such a weird concept. I feel so old in my current college town singles ward, but when I move to SLC I'm gonna be the one who has no furniture, no car, and no permanent occupation.

After I got the grand tour and bonded with Rachel a bit, I went and hung out with my relatives just a street away (I'm SO EXCITED to live that close to them!!). Then, at 2:00, I began the long journey back home. My uncle dropped me off at the station in central Salt Lake, but I had a half hour to wait for Frontrunner. So, brilliant mind that I am, I looked at the schedule for TRAX and saw that it would get to the Murray station just a few minutes ahead of the train. I thought, "Eh, might as well get on TRAX now and get some traveling done, then meet the train in Murray, rather than just wait here for a half hour."

BIG mistake.

TRAX did not, in fact, get to the station a few minutes ahead of the train. I MISSED the train. By TWO MINUTES. And since there are less-frequent trains on Saturdays, I had to wait a WHOLE HOUR for the next one. Way to save time, Carly!

But I made it home by 5:00pm, completely worn out and feeling gross. I was going to blog about this on Saturday night, but I actually fell asleep at 8:30PM, I was SO TIRED. And I slept until 8:00 the next morning, which is pretty much unprecedented for me.

Anyways, I learned a lot from this trip to Salt Lake, and it made me really happy that I'm going to be living there soon.

If I absolutely have to work and live in a big city, I'm glad it's Salt Lake City. Yeah, the outskirts are kind of dingy and gross, but downtown itself is beautiful, as are the suburbs where my relatives live (and where I'll probably spend a lot of my time).

While I resent not having a car to take me wherever I want whenever I want to go, I'm glad there's such good public transportation to take me around. You get such a different view of the city when you rely on public transportation. You actually see people. I've driven around SLC so many times with my family, and I just never realized how many different types of people live there. When you get on a train, though, you get a very good sampling--businessmen, young families, the homeless, all mixed together.

The smells of public transportation kind of make me sick, and I'll definitely be investing in some hand sanitizer once I live there. Also, I ran into some very sketchy-looking people. That used to freak me out like no other when I was younger, but the mission taught me not to judge too much by appearance. I learned to make eye contact and smile and just remember that we're all people here. I know it's not all the same here, but in Paraguay I chatted with groups of drunk men, prostitutes, and thieves-for-hire. They're not my preferred company, but I learned that we all have the human experience in common, and so many people are friendlier than they seem if you just give them the chance. I don't have any right to be aloof or condescending.

I was afraid that I would come off that way when I was on TRAX. I was dressed very nicely because I wanted to impress my roommate, but all around me in the car were people who looked like they were wearing everything they owned. It made me feel like a snob. I'll be dressing MUCH nicer if I get the internship I want, but I need to learn to be a friendly, smiling, accepting nicely-dressed person, not an entitled rich kid (I'm definitely NOT an entitled rich kid, but I don't want to even SEEM like one).

I have an image to maintain, though. At the TRAX station, I ran into a guy who eagerly asked me if I smoked (he was probably looking for a hand-out). I just smiled and said, "Nope." He laughed and said, "You don't look like you smoke." I smiled bigger and was this close to saying, "I take that as a compliment." I really did. I like looking drug-free and in control of my life. I've got to keep that up.

Anyways, that's just a recap of my visit to Salt Lake. I'm sure I'll have many more experiences to share once I actually live there. Stay tuned!

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Sunday Soliloquy: Life is a Puzzle



(Sorry for no update yesterday. I was super busy and tired. You'll hear all about it tomorrow.)


While I was on my mission, I had good days and I had bad days. I worked hard through most challenges, and got over my homesickness whenever it came, but one of the particularly hardest days I can remember was my birthday.

Our Paraguayan friends were so nice that day, and my family sent cards and gifts from home, but I was still just sad all day. Now I can't even remember exactly why, besides the fact that I was so far away from my family and friends.

I just remember that I ended that day on my knees for my nightly prayers, and I basically said "Heavenly Father, today was the worst birthday of my life." I buried my face in my mattress to hide my tears from my companion. In my aching heart I just kept asking, "Why? Why did this birthday have to be so miserable?"


This is me in Paraguay. This is the only picture on this post that I actually own.
Almost as soon as I said the words in my head, I felt a flood of guilt, and an old memory came to mind. When we were little, my sisters and I loved Beanie Babies. One day, my grandma came over and she brought us mini Beanie Babies as gifts. It was no special occasion, she just loved us and wanted to make us happy.

Well, sadly, Amanda was in a horrible mood that day, and when my grandma arrived she was in the middle of a tantrum. She took one look at her gift, then threw it right back at my grandma, screaming, "I don't WANT a stupid hippo!" I'll never forget how stunned (and more than a bit hurt) my grandma looked.

So there I was in Paraguay. I remembered that look on my grandma's face, and I realized that I was essentially mirroring Amanda's tantrum. God gives good gifts (Luke 11:13). Every day is a gift. And there I was, crying and saying, "I don't WANT this stupid birthday!"

I would never reject a gift here in mortality, no matter how much I might not like it. What right did I have to spurn a hard day? Especially since I fully believe that every day, even a terrible one, ultimately leads to the greatest gift of God--eternal life (D&C 14:7).



So I stopped my tears and apologized to my Heavenly Father for my tantrum, and thanked Him instead for giving me hard days. Because I knew then (and I try to remember now) that hard days make me a better person, which is a good gift, indeed.

Anyways, after contemplating that day throughout the next week after my birthday, I came up with a metaphor that I'm rather proud of.

Life is a puzzle.



Imagine that every single day of your life, you receive a single puzzle piece. Some days, you can look at the piece and tell where it fits into a larger picture. It's a beautiful piece, with a butterfly or a flower on it, and you love it. You thank God for such a pretty piece.

Other days, the piece might have only a glimpse of a flower petal, or you can't tell what it is but it has a pretty color, so you're grateful. You know the piece must have a place in the end. You trust that you'll see its value later.

Still other days, the piece is just ugly. It has no form to it. It has a muddy color. You find it very hard to love it. It may, in fact, make you very unhappy. You want to just cast it aside, and you pine for prettier pieces to come your way.

But, at the end of your life, you've got all the pieces. Everything comes together, and you can see how even the ugly pieces had a place in the amazing puzzle they fit together to form.


Every day really is like a random puzzle piece. Some days are wonderful start to finish. Other days aren't all good or all bad, and they pass by without affecting your attitude much. Other days are just terrible. Every life has its different share of good and bad days, but I KNOW that all of us, in the end, will see the completed puzzle of our lives, and realize that every day truly was a good gift from God.

So appreciate every day. Even the bad ones. It will all come together. You don't have to take my word for it. "Search diligently, pray always, and be believing, and all things shall work together for your good" (D&C 90:24).

Friday, February 14, 2014

Freewrite: A Thought on Valentine's Day



In the summer of 2008, I worked for Tagge's Famous Fruit, managing fruit stands all over Salt Lake City. One day I was at the Sugarhouse location, very near the park. It was an ordinary day--hot, kind of boring, and loud with all the cars on the busy road right in front of the stand. I'd been left mostly alone for the majority of the day, but then a bus stopped just down the road.

A stooped, elderly couple disembarked and slowly shuffled, arm-in-arm, down the road. When they passed the fruit stand, the husband caught sight of my spread of fruit and motioned to his wife. The two of them came over and took refuge from the sun under my canopy.  The woman didn't say anything the whole time they were there.

The husband smiled at his wife and pointed to a container of raspberries. "Look, they have raspberries," he said. "Would you like to take some of these to the park for a treat?" She nodded and smiled up at him with radiant blue eyes behind wiry spectacles, and he bought a pack of raspberries for them to share.

After I wrapped up their purchase, they both gave me wrinkly smiles, then continued down the road, arm-in-arm, and went to the park. Our encounter was short, and I never saw them again, but I can't forget the sight of them walking to the park together, with a pack of raspberries to share on a sunny summer's day. I'm guessing they were nearly eighty years old, and surely they had been married for some time, but they still found days like that day to go on an outing together.

I don't really know how to explain it eloquently enough, but even right now, six years later, I'm tearing up as I type about this. There are so many other instances I can think of that touch my heart, but that one sticks with me. Even though she didn't say a word, I could feel the love that old woman had for her husband. She appreciated that little gesture so much. The husband loved her so much--buying her a treat and spending quality time with her.

And... it's a good thing I'm alone right now because I'm legitimately crying. Gosh dang it, I always get so emotional on Valentine's Day.

I'm hardly ever unaware that I'm 24 and still very much single, but on Valentine's Day it's always 100x worse. It's like a nation-wide anniversary that everyone is expected to celebrate. Except, when you're like me, it's like "National Point-Out-That-You-Have-No-Boyfriend Day."

But as much as it hurts, I don't want to dwell on that. Instead, let me just say that I'm really excited for the day when I do have someone to celebrate Valentine's Day with.

For now, I accept the fact that I still have a lot of growing to do before I'm ready for the blessing of marriage. Because I really believe that it is a blessing. I've seen how happy my parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, and friends are in their marriages. I'm so grateful for the good examples of selfless love I've seen throughout my life.

I've yearned for an eternal companion who won't move away--who will be there with me through thick and thin. I want to grow old with somebody. I want a marriage that lasts forever. The world keeps telling me that that's an unrealistic expectation, but to that I say, "I don't care what's unrealistic. If that elderly, happily-married couple in Sugarhouse is just part of a fairytale, then so be it. I expect a fairy tale."

And when the day comes that I find Mr. Right, you can bet that I'll be sending a heartfelt "thank you" to our Heavenly Father for the honor.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Freewrite: In which I learn to just not open my big mouth




Do you ever do something so stupid that seems so harmless right before you do it? You think, “Aw, this couldn’t hurt. People do this all the time. Nobody will care.” Then you do it, and WHAM. It’s like your soul takes a hit, and you just go around like a whimpering puppy going, “Sorry, sorry, sorry, I’ll never do it again!” 

Maybe it’s just me? Well, it happened to me today, and I felt so guilty that I just had to open my scriptures and look up all the things I SHOULD have done, but didn’t. Here’s what I found: 

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, 
Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law....Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.
--Galatians 5:22-26

And now I would that ye should be humble, and be submissive and gentle; easy to be entreated; full of patience and long-suffering; being temperate in all things...
--Alma 7:23

Remember faith, virtue, knowledge, temperance, patience, brotherly kindness, godliness, charity, humility, diligence.
--Doctrine & Covenants 4:6

He that is slow to wrath is of great understanding: but he that is hasty of spirit exalteth folly.
--Proverbs 14:29

My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into diverse temptations;
Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
--James 1:2-4

Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.
--Matthew 7:12

And charity suffereth long, and is kind, and envieth not, and is not puffed up, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil, and rejoiceth not in iniquity but rejoiceth in the truth, beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.
Wherefore, my beloved brethren, if ye have not charity, ye are nothing, for charity never faileth. Wherefore, cleave unto charity, which is the greatest of all, for all things must fail--
But charity is the pure love of Christ, and it endureth forever; and whoso is found possess of it at the last day, it shall be well with him.
--Moroni 7:46

And be ye kind one of another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.
--Ephesians 4:32

Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
--Matthew 18:4

And whosoever shall exalt himself shall be abased; and he that shall humble himself shall be exalted.
--Matthew 23:12

And whoso knocketh, to him will he open; and the wise, and the learned, and they that are rich, who are puffed up because of their learning, and their wisdom, and their riches--yea, they are they whom he despiseth; and save they sahll cast these things away, and consider themselves fools before God, and come down in the depths of humility, he will not open unto them.
--2 Nephi 9:42

And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.
--Ether 12:27

Inasmuch as you strip yourselves from jealousies and fears, and humble yourselves before me, for ye are not sufficiently humble, the veil shall be rent and you shall see me and know that I am--not with the carnal neither natural mind, but with the spiritual.
--Doctrine & Covenants 67:10

Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
--Matthew 5:9

Let us therefore follow after the things which make for peace, and things wherewith one may edify another.
--Romans 14:19


And my personal favorite:


A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.
--Proverbs 15:1


Don’t take my advice, take His. I know I’d be much happier right now had I just done what these scriptures say in the first place. 

Also, I found this verse in the Old Testament, and I loved it. So many Old Testament accounts show God smiting people and condemning people and being merciless. It was nice to find a scripture that describes Him the way He should be described. 

“But thou art a God ready to pardon, gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness...”
--Nehemiah 9:17

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Drafts: Presenting Snow Glider

Hey y'all. Before I delve into today's topic, a quick update:

1) I'm really close to finishing my editing internship applications, and I put together an online portfolio. Here's the link so you can check out some of my work: carlyspringer.wordpress.com

2) I had to go back to the Health Center today for a follow-up and yet another shot in the backside. And guess what? I have to go back tomorrow, too. Yay...

Okay, so today I wanted to introduce you to some of my creative writing. I haven't written in forever (since school started back up again), but last year I participated in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) and I met my goal of writing 1300 words every day in November, totaling 50,000 words in one month. I was really proud of myself for meeting my goal, but alas the goal word count wasn't enough to actually finish the story. So it's back on hiatus, possibly until this year's NaNoWriMo. :/

The story is called Snow Glider. I'd give you a synopsis of the story, but instead I'm just gonna give you the first half of the first chapter. If that doesn't work for you, then no synopsis I write is gonna convince an editor to accept it for publication anyways.

This is the protagonist, Nara. Yes, I drew this. Yes, I had to copy an existing image and just adjust it to make my own character.




And here's her introduction into the story:


Chapter 1

Anastas
The day was ghostly. That was the only way I could think to describe it as I followed my father and Uncle Jencin out of town. Winter was coming to a close, but fresh snow crunched under our boots. That was the only sound to be heard in the valley that morning, and snow was the only thing I could see. We were less than a quarter-mile from home, but a thick fog had settled in and swallowed us whole. I knew that my house was still directly behind us, but when I looked over my shoulder there was nothing to be seen. Just fog and snow. Silent as death.
My observation made me lag behind a bit, and I was struck with a sudden childlike fear of falling behind and getting lost in the fog. I skipped a step and quickened my pace until I was almost shoulder-to-shoulder with my father again.
Uncle Jencin smirked at me from my father’s other side. “Feels good to stretch your legs again, doesn’t it?”
I grinned and nodded. “After all that sitting and waiting, I feel like I’ve got enough energy to take down a whole musk ox.”
Jencin chuckled. My father smiled, too, but it was faint. He rarely smiled with his teeth. “Don’t get your hopes up,” he said in his deep, baritone voice. “Chances are it’s too early for any big game.”
“I don’t care if all we find are a coupla squirrels, as long as they’re fresh,” Jencin said, stretching his arms overhead and letting out a yawn. When it passed, he blinked and shook his head. “Ice it’s gloomy out here. If we weren’t nearly outta firewood I wouldn’t have left the house at all.”
“Sure you would,” I said. “Don’t pretend like you weren’t as excited as a reindeer let out to pasture when we invited you to come along.”
Now it was my father’s turn to chuckle, but Jencin acted like he didn’t notice. “Reinder--that’s what I wanna eat tonight.”
“Heading in the wrong direction for that,” said my father, his dark eyes twinkling with amusement. “The herders will come soon enough. Be patient.”
“Unless you want us to go north,” I said teasingly. “A week or two out in the tundra just to get you a bite of reindeer meat? Sure, we’ll just--.”
“Oh hush,” Jencin groaned. “I said I wanted reindeer, not that I expected it. When did you get so smart-mouthed, Anastas?”
I shrugged, still feeling smart-mouthed now that the morning no longer seemed so bleak. “Five months of winter changes a man, Uncle.”
“Oh, you’re a man now, are ya?” he teased, reaching behind my father to tug on my vest. “Couple more hard winters and maybe you’ll actually grow into that vest.”
I made a face at him, but his comment stung more than he could know. The dark gold vest with the dark brown trim still didn’t fit me quite right, and it seemed like my responsibility would never quite fit me, either.
“Tell Roald that for me, will you?” I said, hoping my voice still sounded sarcastic rather than worried. “He seems to think it’ll take another twenty winters.”
Jencin sobered a bit, but kept the smile on his face when he said, “Aw don’t listen to Roald. The man has no idea what real leadership is anyhow.”
“That’s enough,” said my father. Jencin and I both looked at him, our smiles gone. I looked sheepishly down at my boots. My father might not like Roald, either, but he never tolerated slander. Not even when accompanied by poorly-disguised humor.
The bleakness came back quickly after that. We walked in silence, and the fog continued to press in around us. I shivered a little despite my thick layers of clothing. Really, though, it was nice to be out of the house, even if there were no oxen or reindeer in the area yet. With the blizzards mostly ended, it was just a few short weeks’ wait until spring arrived. Then maybe we would have some color and sound around here again.
For now…. just snow. Crunching under our boots and mixing with the mist. Nothing but silence. It was eerie, but better than being cooped up with my squabbling siblings.
We continued that way for about another quarter-mile, heading steadily uphill towards the opposite side of the valley, where the base of the mountains housed wildlife in its sparse pine forest. The first leafless shrubs appeared slowly out of the mist, and then a few yards later we started to see the towering shadows of the pines up ahead.
Now the fog around us took on a deeper shade, and I knew we were close enough to the mountains that they were shadowing us from what little sunlight there was that morning. Our silence became more purposeful as we kept our eyes peeled for signs of life.
The fresh snow from last night hid any animal tracks there might have been, and still there were no sounds. Regardless, I reached over my shoulder and loosed the short spear on my back. Its weight was comfortable in my mittened hands as I scanned the mist for anything edible.
A muffled groan came from our right, and we whipped around to face the sound, holding our breath. The groan turned into a rushing roar-- the sound of a great weight of snow sliding down the mountainside. My skin crawled. My worst fear was being buried alive by an avalanche, and I hoped that it wouldn’t be my fate today.
But apparently the avalanche hadn’t been as big as it sounded. After a long, terrifying moment, the crash of snow faded away. The rushing sound echoed around the valley for a bit, but then silence fell once again.
I held my breath a few moments longer, and then let it out in a shaky sigh and glanced at my father. He was squinting curiously in the direction of the avalanche. Jencin just looked excited. “What’dya think caused it?” he whispered.
My father just shook his head slightly, still staring into the fog intently. Most of his face was covered with a thick, dark beard, and his fur hat sat low on his brow. In that dim morning light, I could just barely make out his eyes. He looked nervous.
Then a sound came behind us--a raven cawed. A raven was hardly an ideal meal, but it made me smile just to hear any other living thing out there. Where there was one, there were bound to be more.
Jencin smiled, too, at the sound, but when he continued walking, my father reached out and stopped him. I saw the look on my father’s face and felt my insides go cold. My father was still scanning the fog, unmoving, but now there was real concern in his eyes. He cocked his head as if to hear something better.
Then I heard it, too--the fa-whump fa-whump of something running through snow. Heading straight toward us.
We didn’t have more warning than that. No sooner had I detected the sound then suddenly a huge dark shape materialized in the mist. All I saw was thick fur and a huge mouth. The creature was as tall as a man and twice as broad. I couldn’t help myself--I screamed. It was unmistakably a predator, and we hunters had just become prey.
The creature nearly barreled into us, but at the last second it pulled up short as if it were just as surprised as we were. It slid to a halt, kicking up a flurry of snow, and it made a sound like the bark of a dog, but deeper. When it regained its footing and backed up a few steps, I saw that it looked very doglike. Sharp ears, long legs, a thick bushy tail. Not doglike--wolflike. It was massive, with great hunched shoulders and dark, intense eyes. My fear wasn’t lessened any by the fact that we miraculously still had our throats intact. For all I knew, we had caught this monster by surprise, but it would quickly recover and slaughter us all.
I’d naturally fallen into a crouch with my spear extended. Jencin and my father had staggered backwards at the creature’s appearance, but they now looked just as ready as I was for a fight.
“What the devil--?” Jencin cursed, and he hurled his spear at the creature. It was an impulsive throw, with more fear than strength behind it, and it sailed harmlessly wide of the beast. But now the creature lowered its head and braced its feet warily. A low growl rumbled from its chest. Its dark eyes watched us through the mist, waiting for us to make another move.
“Don’t waste your spear,” my father said to me. “Wait until you’re sure.” He nodded to his left, then to his right. I slowly moved left, and Jencin drew his dagger and went right, just as if we were cornering a deer.
My hands shook slightly and my heart pounded. The creature took another step back when it saw what we were doing. It raised its head and looked back and forth between Jencin and me. Any second now I expected it to lunge for one of us. Our spears--and especially Jencin’s dagger--seemed feeble compared to the massive animal in front of us. It still hadn’t done anything aggressive, but its ferocity and prowess could almost be sensed more than seen. For the briefest moment I thought how amazing it would be to observe an animal like that in the wild. It was almost a pity to kill it. But it had to be done. We couldn’t let a thing like that anywhere near our village.
So I planted my feet and raised my spear to shoulder height. The creature fixed its eyes on me and I froze. Then Jencin took a step as if to charge in with his dagger, and the beast whipped around.
I seized the moment and hurled my spear right at the creature’s hunched shoulder. My aim was true, but somehow the creature dodged. No, it was still facing Jencin in the same position as before, but somehow my spear had passed right by it.
Then I realized the creature’s shoulders looked smaller, as if it had shrunk in size to dodge my spear. But no--
I saw something moving on the ground. I gaped at it, trying to understand what was happening. It was the same color as the wolflike creature, but then I saw legs--human legs--pushing itself backwards through the snow until it rolled to hands and knees and scurried behind the wolflike creature’s legs.
It was a person. A person had been on that creature’s back. Had they not rolled off at the last second, my spear would have killed them. Now I just stared, peering through the fog and wondering what on earth was going on.
Jencin, too, looked stunned, but my father was undeterred. He had raised his spear to eye level and now I recognized the look on his face that he got whenever about to undertake something very difficult. He was confident, though. I was, too--confident that if anyone could kill this beast, it was my father.
The creature stood protectively in front of the person on the ground, faced my father square on, and gave an almost-challenging whoof.
My father let the spear fly with a murderous yell.
The creature leaped. With a graceful twist that didn’t match its huge build, it jumped out of the spear’s way. But before it fell, it reached back to catch the spear between its teeth midair. Then it landed on its feet with its back to us. It looked over its shoulder with the spear in its jaws and wagged its tail slightly, as if this were all just a game to it.
Then it bit down hard. The spear snapped clean in half and fell to the ground.
We stood there, stunned, as the creature shook a splinter from its tongue and turned to face us again. Then I hurriedly backed away to stand by my father again. Jencin followed, nearly tripping over his own feet. What was this thing?
I had almost forgotten about the creature’s rider. Seeing us frozen in shock, the figure suddenly staggered to his feet and came around to the dog’s side. “Hold your fire, you savages!” the person said. “We haven’t done anything to you!”
Now that I could get a good look at him, I saw that they (he) was very short; more than a foot smaller than me. He was so wrapped in furs that it was impossible to tell much more until he threw back his hood and pulled down the scarf from around his face. Then I saw I’d been mistaken.
“A woman?” I said aloud.
She was almost as wolflike as the creature standing at her side. Her eyes were narrow and curved upward slightly. They were a startling, icy blue like no eyes I’d ever seen before. Her hair was pale gold, and it was wrapped around her head in a dishevelled braid.
“An Aglayan,” Jencin growled.
I stiffened again and reached for the dagger at my belt . Now it all made sense. She was one of those wolf riders from the south. Now that I looked, I saw that it was just her cloak that was the same color as her mount’s fur--a kind of mottled brownish-grey . Under the cloak she wore a grey uniform trimmed with thick white fur, the Aglayan Sun stitched on the front. There was a curved blade in her hand, but she held it slightly behind her as if reluctant to use it.
“Too right I’m Aglayan,” she said in a thick accent. She casually sheathed her knife, and then brushed the snow from her sleeves irritably. As she did so, I saw that there was a wide tear in her cloak that allowed the white fog to show from the other side. My spear must have caught the cloak as she dodged it.
The Aglayan caught sight of the hole, too, and she froze. Then she looked up and glared pointedly at me. “My trainer slaved over that cloak,” she said.
A chill crept down my spine. This woman didn’t look like much of a threat, but her dog certainly was. And where there was one Aglayan wearing their royal crest, there might be others. I glanced around warily and felt for the dagger at my hip, almost expecting an ambush of Aglayan warriors to appear any moment.
My father, though, seemed unfazed. He took a step forward, his back stiff and his presence commanding. “Who are you?” he said. “What are you doing here? Tell us, or we attack again.”
The Aglayan woman let out an annoyed huff and narrowed her eyes at him. “I don’t have to tell you anything.”
My father said nothing. He just met her gaze with a steady, stern expression. The woman stood straighter and lifted her chin. There was a heavy pause as they waited for the other to blink. I marveled at my father’s bravery, staring down an Aglayan warrior with a giant wolf dog at her side.
Surprisingly, the Aglayan’s resolve didn’t last long. She sucked on her lip and folded her arms, then looked down at the ground and tapped her fingers as if thinking something over.
“Fine,” she said at last, shaking a stray hair out of her eyes. “I’m not looking for any trouble. My name is Nara. I’m just passing through.”
That wasn’t a satisfactory response. My father scoffed and folded his arms. “What does New Aglaya want with us?”
“She’s probably a spy,” Jencin mumbled. I glanced at him and raised my eyebrows in agreement.
No. I’m not,” said the Aglayan, Nara. She drummed her fingers on her arm even more impatiently. “I’m just leaving New Aglaya. On my own terms. Looking for a new place of residence, you could say.” The more she spoke, the more annoyed she sounded, her voice laced with false politeness, as if this whole conversation was beneath her.
“Your people own the oceans,” Jencin said, waving a hand in the direction of the sea. “Why wouldn’t you come by ship unless you wanted to come unnoticed?”
“The way I came isn’t important,” the Aglayan said. But her annoyance had turned to defensiveness. “Don’t question what the Sun directed me to do.”
I snorted loudly at that. I couldn’t help myself. The Aglayan glared at me again. No doubt she was hoping that mention of the Sun--the creator of the world, the source of all light and warmth and goodness--would quell any suspicions we had. But I wasn’t going to let her exploit the one thing that we Ragnarans had in common with the Aglayans.
“You came all this way,” I said, “over the mountains, in the middle of winter, because the Sun told you to?”
“I don’t owe you an explanation,” said the Aglayan testily. She stared us down again, but I did my best not to flinch, and my father and Jencin did likewise.
The Aglayan rolled her eyes and sighed. “Look, I know what you’re thinking, but I’m no scout. I’m not here under orders from the king. I’m alone. I have no intention of staying here permanently. Just let me through.”
“You expect us to just believe you?” said Jencin. “We’re not just gonna let you take that thing” he thrust a finger at the Aglayan dog, “into our village.”
The Aglayan glanced over at her dog. It stood beside her like a stone guardian, unmoving all this while except to slowly look around at us. Its fur was slightly bristling, and it stood so still, I expected it to spring at us any moment.
As if gaining strength from her mount, the Aglayan gripped the dagger at her belt and said, “I’m not really asking you to believe me.” We stiffened, and she drew the dagger from her belt again, looking determined despite her small size. “Move aside before my dog attacks.”
I licked my lips and met the dog’s gaze. Its ears swivelled backwards, and I flinched. But then I realized that it was just responding to the Aglayan, who had let out a short hiss. The Aglayan hissed twice, as if issuing a command, and I braced myself for an attack.
But the dog just looked briefly at the Aglayan, then shook out its fur and looked at us again, dismissing her. I squinted at the pair and found myself relaxing a bit, amusement almost forcing a smile onto my face.
The Aglayan swallowed, glancing at us nervously, and then she tried hissing at the dog again.
Again, it ignored her.
The Aglayan turned back to us as if nothing had happened, but we had all noticed. The dog hadn’t listened to her, whatever she had wanted it to do. While it was still an impressively intimidating creature, I found myself less worried about it attacking us.
But not so unworried that I was ready to let this Aglayan go free.
I leaned close to my father and said under my breath, “I don’t like this. She’s one of those Whisperers.”
You’re the one who’s whispering,” said the Aglayan. I jumped, surprised that she had heard me. “Trust me, I don’t like this, either.” She continued to glare at us with those cold eyes of hers, but after a moment she lowered her weapon to her side. “I’m not looking for a fight. I’m just passing through. Now let me go.”
We weren’t going to back down, and Jencin was getting especially bold. He slowly walked towards the Aglayan, his dagger raised. “You’re our enemy,” he said. “You have no power here to tell us what to do. You’re half our size. Back down, or we’ll take you down by force.”
The tension was thick in the foggy air, and again I got ready for a fight. But with Jencin approaching so menacingly, suddenly the dog reacted. A horrible growl bubbled out of its throat, making Jencin stop in his tracks. We gaped at the monster before us. Its black lips were pulled back to expose gleaming white fangs the length of our fingers. Its fur stood on end, making it look twice as big. Its brown eyes glared at us, and I felt my knees go weak with fear. Jencin looked ready to go running back the way he’d come, but he was frozen with fright. Even my father’s eyes were wide. The animal had started to look more and more like a dog to me as we confronted the Aglayan, but now it was pure wolf--pure predator--and we were easy prey.
The Aglayan looked at her mount and smiled. She rested a hand on its bristling shoulders, unafraid. Then she looked up at us and smirked. “I’m not here to fight,” she said confidently, “but my dog is three times your size and if you try to harm me, he will stop you. You back down.”
Nobody moved for a long minute. The dog’s growl had faded away, but I shuddered as its gaze swept around our group.
My father shifted his weight uncomfortably, looking down at the ground in thought. Then, to my surprise, he sheathed his dagger and slowly stepped to the side to let the Aglayan pass. I stared at him, then at the Aglayan, and back, uncomprehending.
“We can’t--” I said. But my father gave me a sharp look, and I fell silent. Setting my jaw, I stepped back as well. Jencin reluctantly followed our lead, and we made a path between us to allow the Aglayan to pass.
Satisfied, the Aglayan sheathed her knife and took a step forward. I stiffened, anticipating a trick, and she waited before taking the next step, raising her hands slightly as if to show us that she wasn’t going to try anything stupid. I never relaxed, but I didn’t move either as she slowly made her way past us. Neither did Jencin or my father.
The Aglayan passed so close to me that I could have reached out and touched her. I was tempted to--I could have easily lunged and stabbed her through the heart. But her dog padded after her, its head directly beside her shoulder, and I quickly stumbled backwards to give it plenty of room. Only then did I notice that the dog had a saddle and packs on its back.
My mind burned with questions as the Aglayan and her dog passed us and headed directly for the village. The Aglayan never glanced back, but broke into a purposeful stride as if she had forgotten us already. I itched to run after her, to stop her--to do anything to keep her away from my family and friends. I didn’t know what she intended, and that scared me.
Jencin and my father closed the gap between us, and we all glared after the Aglayan.
“Father,” I said, panic rising in my voice, “We can’t let her go to the village. We can’t. She could set that dog on anybody.”
“I know,” said my father, his eyes stormy. “She might have the Aglayan crown behind her, or she might not. Either way, forget the hunting trip. We don’t have any grounds to stop her, but we’re not letting her out of our sight.”
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I don't want to call it fantasy because I try to pretend like I'm not a huge nerd, but I admit, it's fantasy. It has supernatural elements, shape-shifters, and giant dogs. It just doesn't fit into any other category. :)

Anyways, hope you enjoy. And I hope that someday you see it on the shelves of your local bookstore, preferably with a cover that looks something like this: