Thursday, March 20, 2014

Ambiance: Humanities Banquet



Last night was the English Language/Linguistics Department banquet for graduating seniors. I'm a graduating senior (hooray!) so I got to go, along with my buddies the Butlers, and some other random classmates I've gotten to know over the years.


The banquet was held in the Hinckley Alumni and Visitor's Center (which we students think should totally have the nickname "Havoc" by now). It's hard not to notice the center when you're on the north side of campus, but until last night it was always the building for the "grown-ups" or the "elite"--those who, because of their achievements in academics, are accustomed to fancy dinners and expensive furniture.

So we were very excited to get to go inside it for the first time. It was like a rite of passage. We're graduating! We get to go in the fancy building now because we're going to be alumni!



And fancy it was. It felt a lot like my grandpa's house. Even Starla said so, and she's only been to my grandpa's house once. Almost four years ago. The feeling was uncanny.




I felt really tacky taking pictures, but it was just a beautiful building, and the dining hall was gorgeous. 


The food was amazing. I contained myself enough to not take photos of every course, but here's what the settings looked like when we first showed up.


We had spinach-apple-bacon salad, dinner rolls, grilled honey-lemon chicken, asparagus spears, some gourmet cheesy potato side, and high-quality white grape juice (the Mormon version of wine, I guess). I can't even remember the name of the chocolate dessert because it was so fancy, but mine (pictured above) was a cherry souffle with white chocolate cream on top and whole cherries at the bottom. 

It was all amazingly delicious, and I was grateful to my parents for teaching me how to eat such a formal meal. I made sure to butter my roll one bite at a time, rather than slather the whole roll with the whole butter ball as I normally would. :)


When the meal was mostly finished, the program started. Mostly it was an awards ceremony, for those crazy studious people who are graduating with a 3.9 or higher. I was not one of those people.

There were three very memorable parts of the program. First, there was a eulogy for a student who passed away unexpectedly last year, one day after his first child was born. I never knew him, but he was in our department, and many of the professors knew him very well, so it was a very solemn moment. 

Then towards the end there was a series of toasts (minus the alcohol) for a professor who's retiring after almost forty years. I never knew him, either, but the stories people told about him made me wish I'd known him (he's in Linguistics, not ELang, though, so there was really no occasion for us to meet). 

The highlight of the event was a performance by a gamelan group. For those of you who (like me before last night) have no idea what gamelan is, here's the Wikipedia summary:

gamelan is a traditional musical ensemble from Indonesia, typically from the islands of Java and Bali, featuring a variety of instruments such as metallophonesxylophoneskendang (drums) and gongsbamboo flutes, bowed and plucked stringsVocalists may also be included. For most Indonesians, gamelan music is an integral part of Indonesian culture.[1]
The term refers more to the set of instruments than to the players of those instruments. A gamelan is a set of instruments as a distinct entity, built and tuned to stay together – instruments from different gamelan are generally not interchangeable.
                 




The pictures can't give you even close to a good idea of what this kind of music sounded like, so here's a video of the same group when they performed at the DeJong Concert Hall.

                                      

Also, search for "BYU Gamelan Bintang Wahyu" on YouTube, and you'll find a video of them playing at the Tabernacle last year. For some reason, that one wouldn't load onto my blog.

It was beautiful, in a surreal kind of way. The first song sounded like raindrops on a tin roof--discordant and haunting. But there was one player in the middle of the group who kind of led the others, and at multiple points throughout the song he'd suddenly bang his mallet harder than the others, and in unison the others would chime in. It was like lightning cracking and rain intensifying. It was mesmerizing.

The second song used those bamboo rattles pictured above, and the instrumentalists played them like a bell choir. Each rattle had a slightly different sound. All together, they sounded like skeleton bones rattling together. If you closed your eyes and listened, you could imagine a bunch of skeletons dancing together. Appropriately, they said that song is often played at funerals.

The final song was super fast compared to the others. All the xylophone-like instruments played in major chords (unlike the other songs), but then there were flautists playing along, and their tunes were very minor key. It seemed almost grating at first, but then the more I listened the more I realized that the musicians were extremely skilled, the musical sound is just so different from what I usually hear. 

I love learning about different cultures, and I feel like you can learn a lot about a people from the music they produce. 

Maybe you can tell from the video a bit, but what I found most impressive about playing the gamelan was that those playing the xylophone-type instruments had to not only hit the right chimes at the right time, but then they had to use their other hand to still the chimes a second later. It was like a bizarre game of Simon or Bop-It, with the mallet leading the way, and the free hand following close behind. I can't imagine the kind of concentration you'd need to play so fast and so accurately.


In conclusion, it was a very memorable night. It was a nice way to remind me that I have accomplished something big in my life. Graduating from college is no easy feat. I'll be so proud to call myself a BYU alumna. 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Freewrite + Doodle: Stuck but Still Striving

Today I feel like...

* a kite that keeps getting stuck in tree branches

* a river that just wants to keep flowing but runs into a beaver dam and gets turned into a lake

* a girl who's spent four years of her life studying to be an editor, only to fail in her initial attempts to get even a simple freelance proofreading job. 


I know it's way too early to give up or anything, but from my current perspective, all I can think is, "Wait. I'm NOT getting this job? Then...what have these last few years been about? Am I even going to be an editor, or am I going to just work retail for the rest of my life?"

I know I shouldn't panic yet. I've barely even started looking for jobs. It's just terrifying to know that I'm moving to Salt Lake, to a nicer apartment, away from all my current friends, and I might not have any way to pay for myself. 


But I know that God has something else in store for me. Maybe it's an editing job I just haven't thought of yet, or maybe it's something completely unrelated to editing. I know it will all work out, and in the end I'll look back and say, "Thank GOODNESS I didn't get that Church editing job." 

So for now I'm just fighting back panic and converting my fear into productivity. I'm spending all my free time searching for jobs and refining my skills. 

Except when I'm in class. Today in class I was really bored and there's no internet in the basement of the JFSB, so I tend to doodle instead. My doodle for today is a rough sketch of my History of English professor. It doesn't really look a lot like him, but I'm just pleased with my ability to draw a person at all. I can draw animals no problem, but people are really hard for me. After today's relative success, though, I might just try drawing people more often. Practice makes perfect.




Sunday, March 16, 2014

Sunday Soliloquy: Made Free in Christ

One of my favorite songs to listen to when I'm feeling overwhelmed or sad is "You Are a Child of Mine" by Mark Schultz. If you're not familiar with it, here are the lyrics:




I've been hearing voices
Telling me that I could
Never be what I wanna be.
They're binding me with lies,
Haunting me at night,
And saying there's nothing to believe.

Somewhere in the quietness,
When I'm overcome with loneliness,
I hear You call my name.
Like a father you are near,
And as I listen I can hear You say

[Chorus]
You are a child of Mine
Born of My own design
And you bear the heart of life.
No matter where you go,
Oh, you will always know
You have been made free in Christ.
You are a child of mine. 

And so I listen as You tell me who I am
And who it is I'm gonna be.
And I hang on every word,
Knowing I have heard
I am Yours and I am free.

But when I am alone at night,
That is when I hear the lie,
'You'll never be enough.'
And though I'm giving into fear,
If I listen I can hear You say

[Chorus] 
You are a child of Mine
Born of My own design
And you bear the heart of life.
No matter where you go,
Oh, you will always know
You have been made free in Christ.
You are a child of mine.

You can listen to the whole song here.

This song has a lot of sentimental value to me. It's gotten me through a lot of tough times over the last two years, and helped me remember that God is always here for me.

Well, I had somewhat of another tough time yesterday when the day passed and I didn't get a call from the Church internship people. Despite my backup plans and confidence in God's plan, I found myself getting kind of depressed last night. I sank into a dark mood and returned to some bad habits, and I woke up this morning feeling so weak-willed and ungrateful for everything that I do have.

So I started today off right by reading the scriptures, listening to a Conference talk, and then listening to "You Are a Child of Mine." Once again it demonstrated its ability to cheer me up. But more than that, it had a deeper impact on me than usual.

You know when you re-watch or re-read something (especially the scriptures), certain things jump out at you like never before, even though you know the words by heart? The same thing happened this morning.

I was fixated on two lines:

I am Yours and I am free.
and
You have been made free in Christ.

I know I just talked about how obedience brings freedom in one of my past blog posts, but it's funny because yesterday two people separately assured me of the same thing. I was texting both my grandma and my dad, expressing worry about the internship.

Nana said, "You have done all of the right things that will open up options for yourself. Many people your age have made decisions that have closed or limited their options. In the grand, eternal scheme of things, you are way ahead of the game! Think of yourself as being ahead and not behind."

Then, a few hours later, completely unaware of my conversation with Nana, Dad said, "Disappointment is fine. Fear is not necessary. You have freedom that comes from hard work and obedience."

At the time, when he said that, I thought, "Huh. That's funny. Nana said something similar." And then I listened to that song this morning and I was like, "Wow. I'm hearing this everywhere. I guess I should pay attention."

Honestly, I don't feel like I've been doing "all the right things", and I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't get the internship simply because there were others more worthy of it. But I'm not going to delve into my problems.

I just want to say that it is a true principle we all have in our lives--Christ's Atonement paid the ultimate price for our freedom. As long as we sin and disobey, we are chained down by guilt and the consequences of our actions. But when we keep the commandments of God and do our best to improve and make good choices, we are free. We can go as far as we want in life if we listen to Him.

Some people tease and ridicule those who stick to certain principles, but look at how free they can make us (obviously these aren't guarantees, and I'm not condemning those who don't follow these principles, I'm just saying.):

* By not giving into vices like alcohol or drugs, we preserve our health, save money, and don't have addictions manipulating our actions.

* By staying chaste, we avoid unwanted pregnancy, heartbreak, and shame.

* By dressing modestly and abstaining from crude language, we earn peoples' respect and are seen in a different light.

* By being honest and law-abiding, we avoid legal limitations and people give us more freedom because they trust us.

So when you're like me and you're having a low moment in your life, just remember that God's principles make you free. Even when things don't go as planned, you can know that at least God is happy with you, and He will guide and preserve you. He loves to bless His children when we just make the choices that make us worthy of said blessings.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Deadline: Graduation and Beyond

Well, even though this didn't have an actual deadline (aside from Graduation Day itself), I'm glad that I got this out of the way.


I'm graduating. I can't even believe it. All my life, this is as far as I've ever gotten when it came to goal-making. It was always, "Get good grades so you can go to BYU." Then it was "Work hard at BYU so you can get a degree." Well... now I'm getting a degree and... what do I do after this?

Not gonna lie, I kind of planned on being married at this point. I wanted a smooth transition from Student to Mother. Instead I'm going from Student to... Single Adult? Employee? Hermit?

Actually, it's kind of exciting, knowing that I can be whatever I want until Awesome Future Husband comes along. I feel like a balloon that's just going to be left to drift through an open sky. It's scary, but at the same time I'm pretty darn free. I can keep living with my own, independent expenses, while having no other obligation except to work hard and earn more money. I can live with that. For now.

It just seems kind of lonely. College life is awesome--it'll be hard to leave. Especially if I don't really have anything worthwhile to leave for.

I've been hoping and praying and working to get a Church internship, but so far I haven't heard anything. My friend has, though. They called her yesterday and offered her one of the internships I was hoping to get. And here I am just checking my phone every two seconds waiting for my own call. They're hiring through Monday, but I still would like to get called sooner rather than later. I don't know what I'll do if I don't get this job.

There are other possibilities, of course, and I trust that God has a plan that will send me in the direction that will help me most in life. It may be confusing and stressful at first, but I'm confident that things will work out. If I don't get this internship I wanted, I'll find the internship or job that I need.

If nothing else seems certain right now, I am certain about that. God is watching out for me. He's helped me through so much already, and He'll help me again. I may be a balloon drifting aimlessly through the sky, but He's the wind that carries me in the right direction.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Comic Reviews: My Sources of Good Humor

When I was a kid I had a routine of reading the newspaper comics every night after dinner. It used to drive my friends crazy.

Well now I no longer receive the newspaper, but I still enjoy a daily dose of humor. So I thought I'd share with you my four favorite web comics.

1. xkcd

This is a comic created by a super smart scientist who finds humor in everything. Sometimes his jokes go right over my head.


Like this one. WHAT is this?? Obviously it's aimed at computer programers, which I am not.

But then sometimes the joke is aimed at MY specific field...


...and I find it HILARIOUS.

And most of the time his jokes are basic real-world enough to be funny to readers of any scholarly field.


Assuming that you keep up with current real-world issues.



On top of his almost-daily comics, this guy also has a "What If?" page where he uses his vast physics and science skills (and funny drawings) to answer ridiculous theoretical questions posed by fans. 

This one on Radar Enforcement is my favorite so far, though I just barely discovered this page a few days ago.

So the jokes might go over your head sometimes, but give it a try. It's definitely enriched my life.



This comic is very similar to xkcd in style of drawings (stick figures are popular, apparently) and style of humor, but I can't ever remember not understanding one of their jokes. So if you're looking for something simpler and consistently funny, this is the comic for you.




This is actually a blog, not a comic, so I can't copy and paste any examples. Written by a wife-and-husband tag team, this blog receives photos from fans of absolutely terrible professional cakes, and puts them all together in some kind of hilarious narrative or parody. Seriously, check it out. It updates every day, and it never fails to be funny. 

And just when you think your faith in bakers is lost, on Sundays, they post "Sunday Sweets"--photos of absolutely amazing GORGEOUS cakes. 


4. Nimona

Finally, there's "Nimona". This is actually more of a graphic novel. It has a beginning, middle, and eventual end (though it's not finished yet and I can't wait to see how it all turns out). The art gets progressively better as time goes on (so don't judge the whole thing by the first few pages), and the characters are great. The eponymous Nimona is a snarky teenage shape-shifter and I love her.

It only updates on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and you will get super hooked into the story so if you binge-read the whole thing and catch up to the current pages, you will have many agonizing weekends ahead of you. Trust me. The waits are unbearable. Every single page seems to end with a hook or cliffhanger that makes you desperate for more.


Conclusion: I appreciate good, clean, smart humor, and these are my four main sources of it. I hope you come to enjoy them as much as I do!

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Freewrite: Healthy Eating



Me: I'm gonna eat more healthy. For reals this time! No more sugar for me!

Health Experts: That's good, but remember that fatty foods are also extremely bad for you.

Me: That makes sense. No more potato chips or bacon, either. I'll make chicken my main protein source.

Health Experts: Better, but be sure to avoid chicken with growth hormones or chemicals.

Me: Okay... That's a bit harder, but okay. Smith's has an organic section.

Health Experts: And make sure that the chickens weren't grown in a factory farm. The conditions stress them out and make the meat bad.

Me: Um... Well it'll be hard to find someone in Provo who raises their own chickens...

Health Experts: Each chicken should have a personal caretaker who feeds the chicken by hand, dresses the chicken in only the finest polyester vests, ensures the chicken gets a good education, and gives the chicken a proper funeral before you eat it.

Me: ....What?

Health Experts: In fact, you should just avoid eating meat at all. It's bad for you.

Me: Okay yeah I can see how that's healthy. And that's easier than finding free-range chickens. Maybe I'll--

Health Experts: Actually, just go vegan. Animal products are bad for you AND it's immoral.

Me: Eeeeh....okay.... Not even cheese?

Health Experts: Just make sure your veggies have no pesticides or chemicals in them.

Me: Again, Smith's has an organic section, so that's--

Health Experts: Every plant should be respectfully cultivated, free to grow as it was meant to grow, with gardeners who sing to them every day to enhance their happiness and thus give you better health benefits. They must never be refrigerated, but must only be harvested when they're ripe and ready to eat.

Me: Um....

Health Experts: And a study showed that Ohio has the best soil, so you should only buy products from there that meet all the above criteria.

Me: ... I'm in Provo. I don't have a car to go to Ohio.

Health Experts: Too bad! You HAVE to conform to these standards of healthy eating or else you're not really "eating healthy" at all! You might as well just go back to eating hamburgers and Frostys!

Me: ...

Health Experts: ...

Me: ...

Health Experts: ...

Me: Bye.

Health Experts: Hey! Where are you going?!

Me: Wendy's.


Ah, Internet. I knew I could count on you when I wanted a picture of a "dapper chicken".
(In case you were worried *cough* DAD *cough* I really do eat relatively healthy food. It's just funny that so many people keep pushing it to the "next level".)

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Doodle in the Margins: Yes, another one...

Sorry, I thought Doodles would be rare on this blog, but I've found myself drawing a lot lately.

(This is terrible quality--I drew it in like fifteen minutes--and I didn't actually scan it, so sorry. But I find myself hilarious sometimes.)



P.S. Roomie and Boyfriend, if you happen to follow my blog, I really do love you both so don't be offended. Just know that this is why we don't hang out. :)